and I am exhausted... but not for the RIGHT reasons, for the WRONG reasons... again! So frustrating!
Monday: IP - intervals, 5 all out for 1.1km then recover the 5.4km to complete the circle. The 6th lap, some guy wanted to talk with me....
Tuesday: Skipped the humilation ride... Alex said he would do the bridge and if I wanted to come along. Well, I've climbed about 100m in the last 2 months combined, seemed like a good idea. Three rounds of the bridge... one climb completely standing... a success for an early season session, but still... PATHETIC!
Thursday: Humilation ride with the boys... unbelieveable speed today.. After crossing the red bridge I see that there are at LEAST 30 guys at the 'triangle', and they were the BIG, FAST buys... Holy Smokes... I just trot along, get through the intersection. It took them a while to group up. I was quite a bit ahead (not a good idea, like to be with 3 or 4, better chance to stick)... They whiz by me, the first group... then the 2nd group... and the BIG guys... by this time, I have my speed up to catch on and jump in... but at 48kph, my speed simply WAS NOT ENOUGH!
Cried my eyes out when I got home. It was just too much. The little voices in my head are telling me, "all the other girls would have stuck, why can't you?"... And with work being really busy and stressful, PTA with some recent unneccesary stresses, and being bitched out by a fellow mom.... some other things.. I just had it... emotionally... completely being obliterated out there just added salt to a very deep wound. Look in the mirror and an old lady is looking back.... just a really bad day. funny, I have so many, but couldn't contain my tears this day.... so the family had a look at their 'rock' that actually does fall apart sometimes.
Friday: 4 laps in the IP. Was suppose to go to Cat Lai w/ Alex, but I had been up late working, and thought I may need to conference w/ San Mateo office... so I cancelled and just did the IP. Really boring.... but a recovery ride... the last three were quite intense.
All in all for the week: 140km... 160km shy of my goal.
Next week: Miu Ne!
Monday: IP - intervals, 5 all out for 1.1km then recover the 5.4km to complete the circle. The 6th lap, some guy wanted to talk with me....
Tuesday: Skipped the humilation ride... Alex said he would do the bridge and if I wanted to come along. Well, I've climbed about 100m in the last 2 months combined, seemed like a good idea. Three rounds of the bridge... one climb completely standing... a success for an early season session, but still... PATHETIC!
Thursday: Humilation ride with the boys... unbelieveable speed today.. After crossing the red bridge I see that there are at LEAST 30 guys at the 'triangle', and they were the BIG, FAST buys... Holy Smokes... I just trot along, get through the intersection. It took them a while to group up. I was quite a bit ahead (not a good idea, like to be with 3 or 4, better chance to stick)... They whiz by me, the first group... then the 2nd group... and the BIG guys... by this time, I have my speed up to catch on and jump in... but at 48kph, my speed simply WAS NOT ENOUGH!
Cried my eyes out when I got home. It was just too much. The little voices in my head are telling me, "all the other girls would have stuck, why can't you?"... And with work being really busy and stressful, PTA with some recent unneccesary stresses, and being bitched out by a fellow mom.... some other things.. I just had it... emotionally... completely being obliterated out there just added salt to a very deep wound. Look in the mirror and an old lady is looking back.... just a really bad day. funny, I have so many, but couldn't contain my tears this day.... so the family had a look at their 'rock' that actually does fall apart sometimes.
Friday: 4 laps in the IP. Was suppose to go to Cat Lai w/ Alex, but I had been up late working, and thought I may need to conference w/ San Mateo office... so I cancelled and just did the IP. Really boring.... but a recovery ride... the last three were quite intense.
All in all for the week: 140km... 160km shy of my goal.
Next week: Miu Ne!
3 comments:
The fact that you couldn't stick with the group shouldn't get you down. Most people wouldn't even have been on the bike.
Thanks! BTW: who are you???
I do agree with Pepe Le Pew but would like to add this on: it's also a psychological thing! they probably know the road quite well and therefore it helps while you are still being affected by that 5th crash! Paying lots of attention to the surrounding traffic rather than the peloton! or perhaps concentrate to stick with the big guys group first then move on to the second group! or sometimes your physical ability is governed by your state of mind. Don't blame yourself too much as this would impose unnecessary pressure upon yourself. Perhaps you need a little break? Perhaps a coming up cycling break with your family in Mui-Ne will help. Take care, Long.
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