Cambodia

About four months

have gone by....since we moved to Vietnam.

I ran out of picture space on my other blog.  Most of my readers are cyclists, and most are happy people.  I used to be happy.  I used to treasure every moment.  But, I am so sad these days, it is really hard to look back on that time.

I miss my friends so much.  I miss my best friend, I miss the riding, I  miss the racing, I miss everythign my life had in it in Taiwan.  Now I am in Vietnam, I finally understand I can't duplicate Taiwan.  I can't ride the way I want to, certainly do not have the close friends I had though I probably know more English speaking people here then before.

I got myself involved immediately.  That was smart!  But, I work alone.  I ride alone, or with guys..... yet again. 

My heart broke when I left Taiwan last month.  After nearly 2 weeks of being gone, I am not sure it has mended in the least.  I wonder if it will, or if I will be in this sadness forever.  It feels so lonely.

Vietnam

I am trying to figure out God's plan for me here. So far, clear as mud.... Emily has the same conclusion. Why did He pull us from our super happy environments to move us again? You know, it is tough. Were we straying to far and not needing His dependence? I don't know. I do know and trust our Lord that we are here for His purpose. I just have to get over myself to see it. I am so lucky in every way.... why should leaving Taiwan be so painful? I am not roaming the streets, I am not trying to make ends meet at $250 a MONTH. I have free will over my food, my kids have a kick-@$$ education (sorry, but it is true). They have opportuity that any worker on our street would literally, cut off their right arm for...

It's humbling....Vietnam!