You know, the movie Cast Away comes to mind.... the main character Chuck Nolan unexpectantly ends up on a desserted island. After many tries of getting off the island, he realizes that this IS his life!
Then, one day... the wind brings him the 1/2 shell of a portable bathroom. He realizes that he can use this as a sail and get over the reef that had caused abandonment of all previous attempts off the island....
Well, today, life brought me 1/2 shell of a portable bathroom!
Like Chuck, the simple things that I took for grantid... I really appreciate now.
When I moved to Vietnam, my cycling life felt lonely and like I was on a desserted island. Over the months, I came to accept this. Like Chuck, no choice.... you just have to make the most of what you have. Cyclign in a group as the rest of the world knows it does NOT exist here for me! There's the mad dash... scarey ride that I have written endlessly about... and there's me... alone... riding... and that's what the majority of my cycling life has been.
Alex has been a good friend. His ability is so much higher then mine, so when we join scarey ride, he leads the crazy pack, eventually I fall out and that's kinda it... I don't join for coffee very often. Typically, I am trying to get home to get the kids off to school, or if it is a Saturday, I want triple digits and not willing to give up my time on the bike for coffee.
Cycling is not a social activity for me at all. It has taken pure determination and a tough mind to stay on my bike! I have difused a LOT of crashes...gotten brushed by stuff on motorcycles, and if I got upset everytime some one made a lude gesture to me... I'd never stop crying.
I train so I can race.
Racing is NOT what it was for me in Taiwan. Now, racing are oraginzed really cool rides. It is rediculous to think I can acheive the results of Taiwan elsewhere when the training is as sucky as it is... but I go to the race to have an amazing ride (FAST - 36kph over 94km when ANZA controlled the peloton... a bit more then a ride), but it's okay.
I have adapted.
I have accepted my environment.
Like Chuck, my change in situation was 100% completely out of my control. Of course, I could leave my husband and move back to the US, but cycling doesn't define me, my family does. We were given and ultimatum... vietnam or unemployment... of course, I asked abuot the severence package. and then.... guess what... you gotta go in 5 weeks.
blah, blah, blah,... if you kept up with my other blog:
www.wretch.cc/blog/bikermom you read it all to tears...
FINALLY, a new woman moved in the neighborhood! FINALLY. She rides a bike.... fast! She's a very seasoned cyclist who used to ride... She can hold her own with the boys.
I waited 14 months....
We went to the Industrial Park yesterday and I was talking 1000 words per second. I told her, "Talking, English, Woman, Cycling"... do you know the last time I used those four words in a sentence, "I am speaking English with a woman on a bike!"???? Well, in Thailand.. yes...
today, we tried to hook up, but things got all jumbled up, but eventually we finished the last 15km together. I invited her over... Gj was so thrilled I have a girlfriend on a bike!
anyhow... like Chuck, I feel unexpectantly, something has come my way that will get me out of this 'acceptable' situation!
It's good.
I am happy.