Monday, March 14, 2011
Sunday, March 13, 2011
Overcoming the fears...
Sometimes you don't really realize your fears are so obvious until they are pointed out. You think you can fake it, or it isn't that bad... but people see it.
I am not sure which crash put more and more fear of the road into me. The last crash was really damaging... I was minding my own business, doing everything right and out of the blue, hit. My sore back is a daily reminder.
Two times were in pelotons or pacelines.... minding my own business and I get cut off by a sudden movement.... I have a permanent dent in my right hip from one and still haven't replaced my front brake lever from the other.
The other two crashes I was hit by a scooter. One in Taiwan, the idiot just stopped.... froze as I came down the hill. Had he kept his own pace, it would have been fine. The other, nicked in the back on 'scarey intersection' in Vietnam.
Crashing really hurts. I haven't broken any bones and imagine if I do, I may never return to the bike.
So, on yesterday's charity ride.... I know I have an opportunity to improve my group skills... I ride in the front of the pack for quite a distance.. to the first stop. The roads are really smooth and nice. Traffic is really light. We turn and pick up another team. I do okay... the road gets a little bumpy, lots of contruction we have to go around. I don't put myself in the front, I suppose I am in the middle of the group which is really a spread out group of riders.
the last bit, I am definitely in the back. The cause of a break in the group. We are three. The road is crappy, very bad. I am very jumpy that motorcycles will hit me...
when we collect at the District 7 coffee shop, and take off... I manage to get way behind in the traffic. The traffic I ride in each and every day, I know this... I feel I have really embarassed myself in front of my husband (who rode with us out to the end of Nguyen Van Linh) and the HNTA team who honored me that morning with Flowers...
I regained my position in the peloton and to the front on known territory. I couldn't make it to the top as Gjermund was pulling the group. But, finally redeamed.
The final 30km to Tan An, I was quite nervous in the traffic... I managed another break.
Anyhow, this morning when Long called to give me an update on Day 2, two very sad things came to me:
1. why didn't I continue... the theme seems to be disabled Children. The kids were in a really poor conditions.... it would have been good to be there.
2. He pointed out my fears.
Reality..... my cycing needs improvement.... or come May 1, I might as well just stay in the van and pass out water.
I feel like such a loser.
I am not sure which crash put more and more fear of the road into me. The last crash was really damaging... I was minding my own business, doing everything right and out of the blue, hit. My sore back is a daily reminder.
Two times were in pelotons or pacelines.... minding my own business and I get cut off by a sudden movement.... I have a permanent dent in my right hip from one and still haven't replaced my front brake lever from the other.
The other two crashes I was hit by a scooter. One in Taiwan, the idiot just stopped.... froze as I came down the hill. Had he kept his own pace, it would have been fine. The other, nicked in the back on 'scarey intersection' in Vietnam.
Crashing really hurts. I haven't broken any bones and imagine if I do, I may never return to the bike.
So, on yesterday's charity ride.... I know I have an opportunity to improve my group skills... I ride in the front of the pack for quite a distance.. to the first stop. The roads are really smooth and nice. Traffic is really light. We turn and pick up another team. I do okay... the road gets a little bumpy, lots of contruction we have to go around. I don't put myself in the front, I suppose I am in the middle of the group which is really a spread out group of riders.
the last bit, I am definitely in the back. The cause of a break in the group. We are three. The road is crappy, very bad. I am very jumpy that motorcycles will hit me...
when we collect at the District 7 coffee shop, and take off... I manage to get way behind in the traffic. The traffic I ride in each and every day, I know this... I feel I have really embarassed myself in front of my husband (who rode with us out to the end of Nguyen Van Linh) and the HNTA team who honored me that morning with Flowers...
I regained my position in the peloton and to the front on known territory. I couldn't make it to the top as Gjermund was pulling the group. But, finally redeamed.
The final 30km to Tan An, I was quite nervous in the traffic... I managed another break.
Anyhow, this morning when Long called to give me an update on Day 2, two very sad things came to me:
1. why didn't I continue... the theme seems to be disabled Children. The kids were in a really poor conditions.... it would have been good to be there.
2. He pointed out my fears.
Reality..... my cycing needs improvement.... or come May 1, I might as well just stay in the van and pass out water.
I feel like such a loser.
Sunday, March 6, 2011
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Linda Yeo
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Linda Yeo
Quoc Pham
Liz Hunt
Laurie Graeper
Tandi Rose
Kim Ames (??)
3,800,000 ++ vnd total thus far!
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